Depression and addiction
Posted Nov 5, 2014 by anonymous | 253 views | 7 comments
After seeing the pathetic piece of shit that alcoholism turns you in to through my grandparents when I was little, I promised to myself I would never touch it in my life. It scared the shit out of me. That worked till I went to college. Now I'm in my early 20's, an amphetamine addicted alcoholic and have closed every door I could open, for no reason.And I had every opportunity to be successful, unlike so many people. I drink and overdose on Adderall everyday. I even lie to my psychiatrist, and never told him that I'm chronically depressed and suicidal, just to get my script without any hitches. I also have a chronic neck pain which is driving me insane. My parents don't believe in it or depression and adhd but are the most amazing people I have ever known. I haven't spoken to my dad since I was 8, but I have the best stepfather in the world and an amazing caring family as well as amazing friends that for some reason still care about me. I feel like the walking dead, and no one knows what I'm hiding. The only way I see any relief is a bullet to the head. This is not a cry for attention type of post, but a cautionary tale or something that you can refer to as "hey, at least I didn't screw it up that much". After all, I have nothing to lose. Don't fuck it up no matter how shitty you feel , because it will be "too late" at some point even if you are in a supportive environment. I'm not poor anymore thanks to my amazing mom(grew up in a communal apartment in Russia),and didn't have anything holding back but my own crazy mind, still, that hasn't stopped me from a downward spiral.
Commented Nov 10, 2014 by anonymous
why a bullet ??
Commented Nov 7, 2014 by anonymous
Oh I sapose you are the same worthless piece of skin from the confession about the little girl crying for the first time In 2 years? What you are gonna insult this guy too? You are worthless and people like you don't even deserve to breath, or live or have electricity you evil pain in the Butt you are a cold horrible heartless piece of crap and I hope you pay for if dearly one day biatch.Go flicking die in a house fire for being so mean. This poor anon, was confessing their heart out, and you come and belittle their feelings and stuff. You are lower than scum.
Commented Nov 6, 2014 by anonymous
Go to Opra fucktard
Commented Nov 6, 2014 by anonymous
Wow my mother wants it too
Commented Nov 6, 2014 by anonymous
Dude, YOUR mother says she wants it.
Commented Nov 6, 2014 by anonymous
Hi please, please, don't feel so hard on your self!!!! I'm clinically depressed too, and I've been addicted to pain killers before, it's not too late for you!!!! Half of this isn't even your fault tell your shrink the truth!!! They can and will help you, sit them down and tell them thus, all of this, thy will help you, and even exsplain to your family.it isn't to late you are young yet, (I'm young too) get this fixed now and and you could be you definition of 'normal' with time to spare before you are 30. Please do this for you, or your family, it's time to stop the lies and the hurt , you can do this!
Commented Nov 5, 2014 by anonymous
Your mother says she wants it.