The truth is, I have only been your friend for this long hoping to bring some class into your life, but time has proven that you are not capable of rising above the squalor you have become accustomed to living in. You are satisfied to verbally abuse your children and physically abuse your grandchildren. You truly believe that selling prescription drugs is a means to living instead of an illegal activity. You don't even see your own drug addiction, or the fact that your children are addicted to drugs and alcohol and the effects are evident in their children, which would explain their many physical, emotional, and developmental problems. Dragging them to what ever doctor will agree to "drug" them isn't going to solve those poor children's problems. They are an unfortunate product of you. No woman with any self respect or knowledge of their self worth prostitutes herself online the way you do, and that is what you are doing. The saddest part is, you sell your self to the lowest bidder because even desperate men turn you away. Only those who are like you, the dregs of society, are willing to wallow in squalor with you and risk being infected with the disease de jour that he himself is probably host to. No decent man, a man looking for someone to love and adore, someone he can care for would find that in someone like you. You are used to men using you for sex, often abusing you to get sex from you and them either physically or emotionally abusing you afterwards, so much so that you are willing to send them smut photographs of yourself after first speaking to them online, and naively believing that because you have done so this makes them you're "boyfriend". This shows your immense immaturity not only emotionally but psychologically as well. Which also leads to me to question if you don't suffer from some level of retardation as well as mental illness. In recent months you have become increasingly unstable, I dare say a danger to yourself and others and this has lead to my final good-bye. You refuse to properly seek medical and psychological treatment and therefore I am going to speak to family privately warning them of your instability. Your activities involving men have grown increasingly risky, with your frantically searching for attention from men by sending nude photographs, engaging in phone sex and sexting with the belief this is the only way to not only gain, but keep their attention. I am unsure if your stories of strange men showing up at your door for sex dates are real or only part of your sad and twisted fantasy that you have created for yourself in order for your sense of self worth to survive. In either case, your actions only prove your problems with men go far beyond any daughter-daddy issues you claim to have. Furthermore, what you fail to realize is how your trysts with these desperate men are endangering not only your own safety, but the safety of the children in your home. You don't know who these men are and yet you readily invite them into your lives, giving them your address, leaving yourself and those innocent children open for anything. You have already covered up the sexual and physical abuse of two children and I have no doubts would have no guilt of doing so again, not to mention your own sick fascination with the anatomy of the male children in your immediate care. What grown woman plays with an infants penis while she's changing his diaper? Or readily admits she has had to keep a child home from school because "she spanked her too hard". The kind that is beneath my efforts. Today I wash my hands of you and the filth you seem satisfied to live in.