I had the hots for you for years, but I was too shy/scared to say or do anything. You looked interested, but never did anything, so I just assumed that you were just flattered by my attention and ended up trying to move my attentions elsewhere. Why focus on someone who doesn't really want you? So years later I run across you again, and I end up feeling some of those same feelings. This time you seem to be a bit wary of me. Did I hurt you when I moved on last time? You never made a move and when I moved on, I just didn't think that you really cared. I've heard that you might be dating someone, but nobody seems to really be sure. I've thought about finally just biting the bullet and confessing that I used to be attracted to you and that I've found myself attracted again, but I'm afraid of two things: I'm afraid of being rejected. It hurts and it means that I can't live in denial. The other is that I'd push you away since you wouldn't know how to deal with it. I'm almost 99% sure that I'd get rejected, but part of me wants to do it anyway. If I do, I'll probably wait a little while before doing this and get to know you again before doing this. I want you to think that I'm more than just some strange and awkward girl. It just hurts. I run from being incredibly happy and incredibly sad, so part of me just wants to do this now and get it out of the way. Isn't that selfish? I'm worried that I'm more thinking about my feelings than yours. Wouldn't it be a burden to confess to you just to lighten my own feelings? I want to do it partially because meeting you again has made me really re-think things in my life and change things, and confessing would share that with you. I hate myself right now for doing this. I'm too afraid to even respond to an open group invite because I don't know if you want me there or not. One moment you're talking to me, the next you look at me like you don't know what to do with this person that's walked in the door. I just sometimes wish I could feel something different. I don't want you to push me away- I'd be willing to settle for being friends, although I do want more. I just don't want for you to make me feel like I can't be around you. I made the mistake of moving away from you once and I don't want to do it again.