Why does it seem like some people are blessed with high self esteem and others cursed with low self esteem. Unfortunately for me, I'm one of the cursed one. It just seems like self esteem isn't something that you can build up yourself. Others have to build it up for you. It's the little things that build up our self esteem like little compliments, or when someone laughs at your joke, or someone takes the time to introduce their self to you. Those kinds of things never happen to me. Once I met a guy in a movie theater but as soon as the lights came on he never texted me or spoke to me again. I don't think I'm butt ugly, I have nice... uhm... teeth. Sure there are plenty of things that I'd love to change about myself but still I'm not THAT ugly... am I? I' e tried faking it until I make it, but that doesn't seem to work. No matter how much I tell myself, I'm pretty. It never seems to work. I don't have many friends. I've been to four different schools and each time I leave I never speak to any of my old class mates again. Well, except for some people that came to my high school with me, but they only sit with me at lunch because I'm a familiar face. No one ever laughs at my jokes, or says my hair looks nice, or anything. While my HDTHBF (How Did This Happen Best Friend) is constantly on her phone talking to boys, friends from our old school, and everyone else who is popular and attractive, just like her. On a scale of 1-5 my self esteem is 1.5. I'm the ugly girl of the group. Technically I'm the fourth wheel and not the third. We have a little group of girls that all came from my school. We eat lunch together, have classes together, and drive home together. All of the, are super skinny, perfect hair, perfect skin, and are popular while I'm the complete opposite. I'm the friend everyone wishes would just crawl in a hole and die. My hair and water don't mix so with all the humidity, rain, and snow we're having, my hair is a constant mess. There's is like water resitant. They're super skinny. Two of them are ballet dancers and eat salads everyday and one of them eats more than me, never exercises, and is still the size of a toothpick. I don't get it. My mom is constantly complaining about my self esteem ever since she caught me eating an entire box of cheese itz. I asked her if I could join a gym, NO, I tried to do sit ups in the living room, NO, I tried a work out video, NO, I tried not eating at all, NO (and it ended with a long lecture on self esteem) I don't know what to do anymore. HELP!