I'm a 20 year old male. Two happy parents both still together to this day. I've never been touched by punishment by them a day in my life. But I'm a schizophrenic. I live a double reality. I am a 20 year old male who has lived up to 40 years in two different realities. It's a dream that I can't escape but I don't know if I wanna escape it sometimes. I have a hard time destinguishing between the two different realities. When I lay down to sleep every Friday night I go into a dream, a dream so real I'm only forced to believe that it is. This other reality acts the same as the one I live and breathe in now and everything reacts exactly the same. When I'm in this world though, it lasts longer than a normal dream, significantly longer. I spend months upon months in this alternate reality. It's been like this since I was 7 and nobody knew about it till about a week ago. The dreams have gotten so intense that I end up staying in them longer than a year at a time. Sometimes I'm afraid to fall asleep because I don't know what will happen. I hear his voice in my head saying random things, things that don't make sense until I fall asleep on Friday night, then I hear my voice in his head and it this voice that keeps me alive. In this reality I'm Shean Sebanski. I'm married to Reebeckuh Sebanski. I'm a 42 year old male with no children and the time takes place on september 5th 2828. The scenario is the same every time. I wake up on my desk in a skyscraper in a town I'm unsure of. But I awake to the sound of my phone and it's always Reebeckuh. It takes me a minute to figure out what I'm doing and then I realize that something is going on outside the window and there are these black creatures falling from the sky. These creatures stand 9 feet tall all black with no face. They have the same structure as a human but they are covered in a black slime. They have four arms and three spikes that dangle underneath there arms that secrete a poison. They have a slight hunch due to their size. Always the same I run out of the building and make it home to my wife. From here I will meet people along the way but I always have my wife with me. I have to make it from point A to point B before I can wake up and I never know how long it's going to take. it could take minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and just recently years. I fell asleep last Friday and for the first time I had to kill my wife. We were in an abandoned building in the woods and I thought we were alright for a couple of hours to get some sleep. Right as we fall asleep one of the creatures fly through the window and grabs her. It didn't see me at all... just her. It held her whilst still hovering and I could feel it staring at her. I could feel its hatred and anger. before I had a chance to grab my shotgun it already ripped her arms off. As she fell to the ground it reached its hand right through her stomach and ripped her spine out before I put a slug into the back of its head. I knelt next to her while she was gasping for her last few breathes. I pulled out my knife and rubbed the back of my hand against her face as a tear rolled down my cheek and landed gently on her forehead. "I love you" I said and sliced her throat to end her suffering. That was the worst time I had waking up. I woke up in a friends house, but when I wake up I'm not me I'm still Shean and it takes about 3 to 4 seconds before I start to lose his memories and get mine back. I'll never forget how I felt when I woke up. I told my best friend... my sister everything, everything I knew atleast. But I had a dream last night. This dream made everything that has ever happened make sense. I watched Shean Sebanski talk to his wife in my dream but in the dream they talked about me. He said my name and dated directly back to a time when I was seven. It was the first time I went to the hospital. I broke my urethra and got a concusion but the doctors were so focused on my urethra they didn't eve think to look at my head. a week after that I started having the dreams and hearing the voices in my head. I didn't realize that's when my schizophrenia started. He then dated back to a time when I was on the swim team and got a concusion again. A few days after that incident things would start to slow down and disappear, instantly reappearing. the road would also wave, not up and down but side to side. I listened to him talk as he talked about how he lives this other dream for months at a time as well. But the times he lives in are the times that sound like I'm gonna spend in the military. Three weeks ago I started talking to a recruiter, last night I hear Shean talk about these times he has in his dreams in my dreams... Is Shean sebanski a Life I have not lived yet or is he living at the same time as me? I honestly don't know whats real anymore. I don't know which reality is real. I just know I preoccupy them both at different times. I don't know if I wanna sleep anymore. But after knowing all of this, I don't know if I wanna sleep to see if the dreams take me to a better point in time in Shean's life. I don't know what to do and there is only one person I can actually talk to. I just need to get one good night of sleep without thinking about Reebeckuh... God I'm in love with a girl I'm pretty sure doesn't exist. I know I'll find her in this reality one day...