I tried to post here a few minutes ago. Today has been horrible again. My husband broke out of the stress center and came home. The police were on his tail. But by the time they arrived he had put a high pressure air poison dispersal device. Put a printed target on his chest and was waiting in the door of his computer room, when they came in with their weapons drawn. They did not know what my husband had beside him. My husband told them three shots apiece should do. His mother, sister, a police mental health officer, talked to him for several hours, the mental health officer said no one wanted to hurt my husband, he said if they shot straight it wont hurt. She said that was not going to happen. They told my husband to let go of the switch a while ago. He said he was not going back, they asked him why not and he said he was purely sick of hospitals. They said if he would let go he would not have to go back. They had to amend that statement saying it would be the state hospital for two months. my husband just laughed and said that was a laugh. he said that once you go in you don't come out. The mental health officer promised that the max stay would be two months and all of his medical needs would be seen to. He finally put everything down and they cuffed him and transported him north to the state hospital. Mother in law said that there were going to be changes made in the next two months. The mental health officer then said that my husband was not wrong about it being a life sentence. His medical problems were going to be looked at but the Chemo therapy would cost the state to much so that will stop. He will be Isolated because of MRSA.. She said that it has to be this way. My husband has been bullied and abused for so long his mind is broken. He will lash out when he is interfered with. He might have a max of six months left of life without treatment according to his oncologist. More like four. Found out after his mother left she was devastated, I am to. I have denied a life to myself and my husband just to keep people happy, and not run to us about how unfair my husband was. I heard they have given him a shot to keep him very calm. My husbands mother has gone to the ACLU about the way things went down. They think that he had been pushed into a corner by the way this states society work and have filed a writ of habeas corpus. It makes everyone scared that the judge is going to allow it. .We just don't know what will be the mental state my husband is in. He has only hurt the old boyfriend that I had a couple of nights with, and that was after he assaulted my husband. I think that now there isn't any chance for a good life, of love and forgiving. I took things way to far and did not consider how much damage was being done to my husbands mind. They say he was probably cliniicly depressed but now he is far worse. He is not manic but cold and very calculating. He will be home probably tomorrow. Maybe even tonight. Hope he is at least a mood to talk. I don't think that he will demand sex of me again like he did the week after I was with my old boyfriend. That was the reason he was in the stress center. I insisted that it was a marital rape. I am in my fifty's and pregnant beyond the first trimester. Our doctor says it can happen this way and is becoming less rare. I just want to know my child will have a loving father, if he survives until after the baby is born. My father in law is trying to lay down the law about raising his grandchild, My mother in law had me have an Ambio centesus test done to determine parentage. It is my husbands. I think that if my father in law keeps yelling I am going to hurt him. He is the biggest cause of my life trouble with my husband. My husband will see I am pregnant when he comes home. the problem will be to maintain the child is his until I go in for a c section birth for safety reasons.