confused
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 126 views | 0 comments
I got married in December of 2005,things just went from bad to worse,i became sick and in hospital for several weeks,i found out my daughter was a drug addict so i have cared for my 3yr grandson,I could,nt handle being married so we separated in march.I have got so cross and hurt.feeling like every one has let me down.I guess i blamed God yet i know its not his fault.I guess my feeling are if i lose my grandson i,d end my life he is my reason for living.10 mths is a long time.I confess my life is a mess every thing i touch turns into a mess.I struggle learning the gospel i struggle praying for others.Am i selfish,what ever i do, i do it wrong and that hurts.I don,t feel like i,m doing enough for the Lord because when i try to lead some one to Christ it comes out my mouth muddled.so then i feel best to keep quite.why i will never know.I see the changes in my friends and i am feeling left behind.I guess i am truly at fault as i did sleep with my husband before we married i felt guilty and repented maybe i,m still being punished.All i want is to get right with God,feel his presents and tell me i,m forgiven and things will be o.k and that i,m not all bad.I love you Jesus and i,m sorry.
No comments yet. Be first!