Well, I really think that this has happened to many people out there, But ever since middle school I've kind of really liked this one guy. We both went to the same high school and are now juniors. I have always liked him and I never really felt this way before. Yeah I have had a few crushes and easily let them go, but for some reason this one doesn't want to leave my mind. He ended up getting a girlfriend (which cheated on him but he never found out) and around that time he started talking more and more with me. I would of course should all shy and quiet, well, wouldn't you if the person you like is staring at you and conversation with you. They were having some troubles and I would try to help him through it but it felt like to really shouldn't do that because I liked him and I wanted him to be mine but that would've been selfish of me to tell him to just ignore her and move one because I wanted him. They did end up breaking up and after a while I guess I helped him a lot through the breakup, being a good friend and all. He then told me that he liked me And that it's been a while that he has even during his relationship with his ex. I would ignore him trying to forget me ever liking him because I knew it could never happen, but I just couldn't. That made me even shyer around him. We were walking home one day and decided to rest under a tree at a park because it was hot and our school was pretty far. We were talking about random things when he randomly grabbed my face and kissed me. It was my first kiss but I didn’t tell him. Since it was my first I really didn’t react well to it and pushed him away and just walked away but he grabbed my hand and pulled me in for a hug. Then after that I guess we actually started hanging out more and acting as if we were in a relationship but I still felt shy just being with him but really happy. We end up having a fight and I guess that that ended what we had. A few months later ,almost a year, he got back with his ex because she was sorry and missed him (he still doesn’t know she cheated on him). We still talk at times but I really don't want to because I still like him and I can't just shrug off this feeling it hard and I really don’t want this anymore. I just can't get rid of it. Sometimes I would see him around and ignore him but he still walks up to me and hugs me and I get all butterflies in my stomach like in the past…..I really can’t get rid of him…….