So after my 2nd lover, and I can say lover as we did meet more than once and had nice times together, I had some time before I hooked up with anyone else. I had gotten married between 1&2 and so it was not like I could freely hook up with guys and experiment. I had realized that I was a bottom, liked to please a guy as if I was a girl, wanted to have anal sex but needed to get a better idea on how to do it and what was too big of a cock size, and that I was a bit scared of cum. This having been said I found myself traveling quite a bit for business, to places like Orlando, FL and Los Angeles, CA. both places that would normally stay were within a quick drive a an adult store and afforded me the opportunity to act out some things in private. I would normally arrive early, get checked in to the hotel, go shopping at the local walmart or macy's for lingerie, and then stop by the adult store for a move and some toys. I would usually puck up a vibrator and a dildo, and some lube of course. Then when I was alone in my hotel I would put on lingerie, sometimes even put on fake nakes and make up, and chat online. I would tuck my cock between my legs and use the vibrator on the outside of the panties on the tip of my cock like it was a clit, it felt soooooooo good and made me feel so feminine. As I would get more excited I would usually pull out the dildo and place it so it would be pointing up on the bed. I would get on my hands and knees, hold the dildo in place with my feet (which were usually in thigh highs) placing the cock end just between my cheeks while I continued to rub my clit with the vibrator. Now I figured out that I could stratal a pillow and put the vibrator in my panties/thong, so that it would rub my clit and then I could rock my hips forward and backward and get a amazing amount of pleasure. Then I would slide my thong to the side of my arse-pussy, put a little bit of lub on the tip of dildo and start to work it up against my pussy hole. As would rock my hips and grind on the vibrator I would slowly work the dildo into my arse-pussy until I was fucking myself wild and stimulating myself with the vibrator, while chatting of course. I found that when I would cum in this situation I would almost pass out and fill my panties with so much cum it would be everywhere. Then I would lick my cum from my panties and then slowly remove the dildo. I really enjoyed these times. Then one time I was in orlando and I met a black guy (I am white) on the internet and he wanted to cum to my room and be with me. It had been a long time and I was quite nervous. I had not really disclosed to him that I like lingerie. So he came to the room, and I let him in. We started to make out and I could not wait to see my first black cock. I have to admit, I was shocked at the size of his cock, it was at least 10 inches and I really enjoyed sucking on it. He was not so into oral, unfortunately as I was going to enjoy sucking him a long time. He put me on my back, first time for me to do this, and put my legs up in the air, way back, and layed on top of me while he tried to enter me. I have to admit, his cock scared me and was huge. We made out and he slowly pushed up against my arse-pussy. It hurt and while I was trying to relax I did not know if it would ever fit. As we kissed deeply, he would grind and my clit (cock) was stuck between us and would get so excited and that felt so good, like I was his woman and he was rubbing against my clit while fucking me. So every time he would kiss me deeply and grind, i would push against him and work his cock just a bit more into me. This went on for about 30-45 minutes and we were sooooo into it. Then my cell phone rang and it was my wife. This killed the mood. I took the call and quickly got off the phone (10 minutes) at which point I felt guilty and he and I went our separate ways. I pulled out a dildo and fucked myself before I went to bed.