Well as her friend I also award you an EPIC FAIL!.

Shut up! Im her only friend and all this true you ASS!

Tried to kill yourself 19 times?? Weren't trying real hard huh?? FAIL! Let's face it, if you had tried hard enough, the only reason you're alive is someone else's intervention. So there goes your idea that 'no one cares about you'. FAIL! Next - let's see - if you were such a good actor, then you wouldn't still be at ounseling. FAIL! I'm not entirely sure what kind of teachers you are trying to convince us you have, but getting in trouble for not letting guys touch your boobs is complete horseshit. FAIL! As for being fat and anaemic...you must have only just started vomiting then...or you aren't vomiting early enough into the digestive process. Another FAIL! Autistic people, as a generality, aren't suicidal or cutters. i would know, I work with Autistic people. FAIL! In fact, this whole post just reeks of EPIC FAIL!!!!

You need to realize that your life has value simply by you being here. When I was younger I was deeply depressed and no one understood. I remember that the more I talked about it, the more it worsened because nobody would take it seriously. Now I'm 22 still young I know but I have changed so much and I realized that being happy IS so much better. It's one of those things you just can't see when you're depressed because you just feel empty and weak. A lot of guys are hound dogs but think about it...if you were really that ugly would they be touching your boobs? No lol be strong and don't let ANYONE tell you that you're worthless. I promise promise promise you that you can get through your depression and a little secret is the preps and shit at your school...well they feel ugly as well but they handle it in a different way. You see they don't cut themselves, they cut you. Don't punish yourself anymore and I promise you will feel a lot better and will find friends who like you for who you are. Another secret is when you get in that kind of mindstate you render yourself into a viscious cycle and like a self fulfilling prophecy, you will be picked on by others who simply can't understand. That's fine because you can be strong and you can set an example. Please what kind of world will we live in if most of the world is punishing others because they are themselves and the only ones who are good people are also punishing themselves. What kind of world is that? Someone has to stand up. I did and I hope you can too. When you get out of school it won't even be the same. All the people who picked on you will be seperated and living different lives trying to grow up. Be understanding and love yourself. Do what the fuck you wanna do because you can. just as long as you don't hurt anyone. That includes yourself.

At the moment you believe no one cares about you, because you're in a depressive state. When you're feeling down, it seems like the world is against you. The truth is, your parents do love you, and you probably have no idea the profound effect, and how hurt they would be if something happened to you. Please, stop cutting yourself, and please be honest about your feelings with whoever you are talking too. I'm sure you have a lot to offer the world. Don't let what other people say bring you down. Just let it go, and don't bother wasting energy on their negativity.

Most of the people things that life is a drag but it is not the right way to live. Find a better councilor & tell about your problem. Also talk about this to your family members. Definitely there must be way out of it.