OK I met this guy a few months ago...at first, I thought he was ugly and didn't give him the time of day. But then I got to know him, and came to really like him, (and he's not really ugly, just not brad pitt). We hung out a few times, and during this period of my life I was drinking and smoking marijuanna, and I just started poppin zanies, (big problem, had to stop). N-E WAY,One time we were kickin it together and I was really fu**ed up, cuz I diD all three of my habbits before and during meeting him that day. Well, all I know is the next morning, I woke up in a hotel room with my pants off and a open condom rapper next to me. When I told him I didn't remember a thing, he got mad because he thought I was accusing him of rape and 'he's not a rapist'. And for some reason, I believed him, and left it alone. So we continued to 'talk', but I later found out that he was still in a relationship with his 'baby mamma', ( I heard this form his cousin, and saw text messages from her in his phone). aND not to mention that I think he gave me HPV... BUT MOVIN ON As expected, he denied any relations with her outside his daughter, and once again, I believed him. But then his cousin told me also, that he has been physically and verbally abusive to his 'girlfriend' or baby's mother. I just don't know what to do, I mean I know it sounds dumb but everyday I have been tryin to convince myself that he ain't shit, and I am definitely not the type to break up happy homes, even if they aren't happy... But for some unexplained reason I just can't shake him. I'm not dumb at all... I don't know why I feel like this for him especially because he doesn't even make me feel special or do anything that could even come close to making how I feel, ok... What's wrong with me? I haven't had sex with anyone since I found out I ahd hpv, but don't get it twisted, I AM NOT A WHORE, I HAVENT' BEEN WITH SEVERAL GUYS, I DONT SLEEP AROUND. thats why I think I got it from him, but Im too scared to say anthing and plus... I like him and don't want to, so I'd rather just not say nothing to him at all. Why can't I stop liking someone that I know is bad for me??