am i gay
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 342 views | 0 comments
I don't know what is wrong with me lately. Am I gay, am I straight, I don't know anymore. I have had sexual contact with more than one girl; I have tried to hide these feelings that I might be gay. My mother and father has made it quite clear that if I choose to live that way that they will have nothing to do with me because it is not Godly. I go to church I believe in God but will I really go to hell if I like girls? So I have tried to suppress these feelings over the year. I have recently met this great guy and I do love him, but every time I masturbate or have sex with him I visualize girls. This guy is so great and I really don't want to screw this up, I don't know what to do. I just can't stop thinking about girls. He jokes with me all the time saying things like “do you want a boyfriend or a girlfriend.” And then he laughs it off, he knows nothing of my feelings towards girls. I wish I could tell him, I wish I could be true to myself.
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