Alone
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 255 views | 0 comments
I'm really lonely. I'm 33yrs old and never had a girlfriend, not for want of trying though. The problem is I'm the most shy person on the planet. I can't seem to beat it no matter how hard I try. I've even joined a dating website and have girls e-mail me after looking at my profile, but what do I do? Yep, I run and hide. I'm not a complete minger either because I get the eye from girls as I walk down the street, but again I either look away or stare at the ground. This level of shyness is crippling me and I don't know where to turn. It's not like you can goto the Doctors' surgery and get a pill is it? I feel it has to stop or I'll have to stop. I can't live the rest of my life a single man. If I wanted to be a Monk I would've become one. I just want to be normal and have a normal life. I would very much like to be able to have a relationship, but it doesn't look likely. I lay in bed at night crying over this, and just lately I cry through the day. It seems anything can set it off. I've tried praying for help from above but it seems as if His glance passes over me without a hit of recognition. I feel as if I sense perhaps a little distaste. I'm not having a dig Lord. I know there is terrible things going on that need you're attention more. All I ask is for a little strength, a little courage so as I can continue. I'm also sorry for thinking about killing myself, but they are thoughts that just won't go away.
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