I have been a womanizer for the past 15 years. I have slept with 70 different women. Six were in love and wanted to marry me. I can't last more than a year in a relationship without getting restless and wanting to sleep with someone new. I fear I will die alone. I have been with girls as young as 18 and women as old as 49. I have had several 3 ways with two women. I spend 20 - 40 hours per week looking for new dating partners, whether on the Internet or in person. I once had sex with three different women in the same day. I sometimes sleep with two different women in the same weekend. I lie constantly. When I am in a good relationship, I feel great and have much more time for other pursuits. But as soon as that relationship quits working, I am back to chasing women again. About 2 years is the longest I've ever been monogamous. I am fantastic in bed and dozens of women have told me that I am the best sex partner they've ever had. Everything I do with them, sexually, emotionally, psychologically, it is all directed at having an impact on them. I want to be felt, to be remembered. I give women everything they want -- bondage, rape fantasies, cuddling all day long, back massages, talking about our emotions, oral sex, you name it. None of my other accomplishments, being a good father to two children, my career, remodeling my home in San Francisco, all my professional success in my occupation, none of that is as important to me as fucking women and being a fantastic sexual and emotional romantic partner. Sometimes I will go for a couple of months without sex, but that is about as long as I can last. Then I'm back out chasing women. If I get horny enough, I'll even sleep with a fat girl, even though most of the time I am not at all attracted to them. The vast majority of women I have slept with have been quite attractive. I look at my friends and colleagues who are in stable married relationships and all I think is that it must be awful to have to fuck the same person every week for decades. People who know about my life are often jealous of me but it is sort of like being jealous of a great musician. You're jealous that he plays so well, but when you see how much effort goes into it, you conclude you're better off with a more balanced life. Some women like to be fucked in the ass, but I don't like to do it because then they usually fall in love with me. I try to keep a little distance during sex so it won't be all that intense if I am with someone and I know it will only be a one night or few nights' stand, but when I get horny enough, I unleash the full force of my sexuality and then I feel guilty afterward. Porn actors don't know anything about fucking. Their sex is totally devoid of the intimate connection which women crave. You might say that I am a sex addict, but I love meeting new women, I love falling in love. I really enjoy being in a committed relationship with one person. It just can't last more than about a year. I am addicted to the rush of falling in love, of connecting with someone new, but only if they are young and pretty. Otherwise, I feel somewhat disgusted with myself. I have hundred of photographs of the attractive women I have dated and slept with. I usually don't take any pictures of the few unattractive women I have fucked. If I do not have a girlfriend, when I wake up in the morning, I feel normal for about 10 seconds, and then I realize I don't have a great romantic partner that I'm in love with and my brain starts back on the chase. It is like a constant humming noise in my head, a constant feeling that I have got to find a great woman. I check email all day long. I have placed hundreds of ads on the Internet. I have met several hundred women this way. When I was younger, friends of mine were single and did a lot of chasing of men and women, but they all got married and lead normal lives now. I don't know if I am normal and the rest of the world is fucked because they settle for a boring, passionless life, or if I am the weirdo because of the relentless chasing of women for a huge chunk of my adult life. Sorry about the length of this confessional, but it is the only one I've ever written. Before you think I am too much of a sicko, I'd like to say that I've never fucked any of my clients, never fucked an employee, only once slept with a married woman, never anyone under 18, never taken advantage of a woman who was drunk, never visited a prostitute. This is why I call myself a womanizer. My delight in flirting, romancing, seducing, fucking, sometimes falling in love, only to have it repeat over and over. There are several good women I have met this way that I should have married. Women that any normal guy would have married. This is why I am sick. I don't think it can be fixed with therapy. I think I am just made this way. I mostly accept what I am, but reading this makes me realize how much sexuality and romance has impacted my life. I know I would have had more career success if I had not been so distracted by this problem. I might have had deeper relationships with family and friends who love me.